the smell of rain.
this afternoon is deeply melancholy. the sky is overcast and the rainfall started a little while ago- too light to be exhilarating, too heavy to be out in it. The trees seem weary of the bounce-back between thunderstorms and sunshine.
this afternoon, i can relate.
do you ever have those days when you're down, feeling grey, with no real reason? i mean, it wasn't an exceptionally exciting day, but it wasn't that bad either. its just this middleground, inbetween, BLAH.
i think maybe its more internal than external, but then, where is it coming from internally? maybe it's a little bit of anxiety mixed with sadness. and a touch of apathy.
i don't consider myself an apathetic person by any means...but you know that feeling when you have a lot to do, prepare, think about, and yet no time to do it until tomorrow? that kind of feeling- kind of stuck or waiting or something.
i know that feeling well. however tonight i am feeling full of delicious german food and just the right amount of beer. i laughed so hard on the way home too. i think the beer helped.
ReplyDeleterain is funny huh? it is so beautiful but also can bring some kind of gloom. one day in chicago i wrote a couple sentences about rain. i will sare them with u now:
ReplyDelete"I couldn't sleep it seemed all night. i was so restless. not too cold, not too hot, but tossing and turning forever it seemed. outside the ground is wet. that kind of damp that comes after a rain. rain really is cleansing or purifying isn't it? it washes all the dirt and oil away. sure, rain can create a muddy mess but it's a good clean kind of mess."
love u.
-shan
rachell, i feel you on that one. this is claudet yavrom for san leandro. if this is the right rachell, please email me if you want to get in contact....yavrom09@sbcglobal.net
ReplyDeletei would love to talk and catch up. love you girl, claudet
shan says:
ReplyDeleteHURRY UP AND GET HOME!!!
love shannon