Autonomy.

alone.
within myself,
in this,
my place in the world.

i hold hands with my loneliness
and make peace with him.

i am learning
to be alone
and what better place than this-
Taos.
where the surrounding mountains
make you feel small
and the air so cold this time of year
that you want to turn
inside yourself
to keep warm.

desolate beauty
-i am-
learning
all the lessons i have avoided
in my life.

and i can't blame anyone
can't shake my fists
and beg
plead for another
answer.

it is this
i am
and Now

alone.
inside myself
i dig deeply-
because if it isn't here,
it won't be found.