A Moment in the Friendship of...

Me to Aurora: DO you know how CRAZY it would be to have 360 degree vision????

Aurora: giggling begins to spin in a circle.


She blames the late afternoon caffiene...i'm not sure.......

Doubly Foul or For Aurora

Just watched "Waking Life" with my dear friend, and it was so wonderful to see again. Each time i see it i catch different things and retain more...so incredible. (Go rent it....NOW!)

Anyway, there is this part of the movie- a conversation that happens between these two men. It is the inspiration for the title of my blog actually...The Holy Moment. Anyway it just reminded me that EVERY moment in our Life is sacred, and that EVERY moment i have blogged about here is Holy.....the moments of exuberant joy, the frustrated moments, the ones of searing pain. All Holy.


So good to Remember.

A Quiet Friday Night

Ocean, redwoods, time with a dear friend, some Alan Watts or Joseph Campbell, honoring my grandmother's birthday...these will restore my sanity this weekend.

finally getting on the ball with things...FINALLY. feels good.




what the hell does that mean anyway, "getting on the ball"??

Words of Wisdom

Blessed are the cracked

for they will let in the light.

Conversation with Dear Ol'...

my stomach is throbbing
and some wretched scream aches in the place behind my sternum.

internally, i am
rocking
i am writhing
i am retching
up an empty stomach's contents-

why do i even try?
why do i let hope exist,
so small and frail,
emaciated-
yet still with light behind her eyes?

i am reduced to my
five-year old little girl self
who doesn't understand,
and who still twirls and spins
and looks to see if he is watching-

only i'm not spinning
anymore,
not dancing-
i am begging
begging for a moment's mercy
for a breath of tenderness
a crack
a fissure of kindness
in his rocky, hard places.

tonight
i am starving
i am wishing for something better-
than this,
than his cold stare and icy tone-

if a"father's love" cannot melt a heart like that-
what will???

and the burning behind my sternum
turns into a cavern
of pain.
my rib cage holds a void
that i cannot bear the weight of.

how difficult it is
not to believe your father's truths about you.
how much more worse
that your anguish is met with such cold and unmoved ferocity.

Shakira.

I may have too much time on my hands, for instance while i'm at work at the coffee shop, but THESE guys are out of control!!!

For Everyone...

Go see "Little Miss Sunshine." It is by far one of the best movies i have seen all year. Absolutely hilarious, and yet has its touching poignant moments as well.
GO. NOW!!!

Congratulations to Kristen and Joshua and Judah on the new addition to their family!!! Welcome, Killian Elijah, to Life!


Much has happened since i last wrote. Too much to catch up on...i should really know better than to go a week without blogging. :) silly Rachell.

Went to go see my friend Earl J. play at this restuarant in Walnut Creek- he is so incredible. I am hoping to get him to play at the humble venue that is the Mon Cafe. His voice is like velvet. like a cup of hot chocolate after you've been playing outside in the snow all day. i am in love with it.
And i want to adopt his Dad. He is so wonderful to me. I thank God for encountering him in my Life, his love and acceptance is like a meal after years of starvation. Thank you Abba.

So much learning going on....i am so thankful.

I've had some really intense moments with people lately...a connection with Earl, shared tears and conversation with Nat, whom i am more and more grateful for in my Life...she is such a good friend...Laughter with my dear Aurora!!! ohmygosh...Long Live Plain Jane!!!!! Have i said too much?!? hehe maybe not enough.

it's been good to catch up with people i haven't seen, still missing others...(SHANNONCITA!?!) Hope this finds everyone well and doesn't bore anyone to death.

p.s. Have i mentioned how grateful i am for Wise Old(er) Women???

YES! oh man oh man oh man...

Ani's got a new album.....released today!!!!!!! new music and a bunch of spoken word tracks....

DELICIOUS.


i am so excited...why am i in front of this computer and not in line at Rasputins????

hasta.

Breathtakingly Beautiful.

Wanna see some of the most beautiful pictures i have ever seen???

oh man.

Kahlil Gibran...and Joanne.

"Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry,
the philosophy which does not laugh,
and the greatness which does not bow before children."


mmmm, yes.

i have been feeling so peaceful today. yesterday too. i had some pretty dark moments there- but now this peace has settled in my deepest place. i am so grateful.

one more quote, from my friend at the coffee shop, a wise wise woman, a holy-mad woman.

"All is gift, because All is Well."


yum.

A Quiet Sadness Observed.

said goodbye to my first love today- he's moving across the country for school.
it was strange, and a little sad.

endings and beginnings are intertwined so intricately.
just like joy and sorrow.


broken places
shared spaces
the distance between
sharing nothing, and everything-
simultaneously.

we shared a curb and laughed
about our newest escapades
yeah, nothing's the same
and it's all familiar-
it's all familiar

so many apologies go unspoken
they hang in the air-
could be's, what if's, should have's
do they even matter?
or do they just bind us?
or do they just bind us?

broken places
shared spaces
the distance between.