i am a bloody fool.

my heart feels like it is ready to explode out of my chest.
i create a tightly woven web
of past and present
possibilities and poor investments.

this web traps my heart,
exposes my underbelly
and makes me
ache
ache
ache.

what a bloody fool.
i walk around in the shadows of my past,
at this moment i am sitting next to
a ghost
a vision
a person who reminds me of one i used to love.

ugh.
i have to go.