I've got those "Wednesday-Morning-Business-Is-Too-Damn-Slow" Blahs

What is wrong with me?????
i feel like i am ricocheting between health and demise, both physically and spiritually/mentally/emotionally.
i have learned so much, know what my innermost self's response would be, should be, is...and i am ignoring it as much as possible.
i am frustrated
angry
sorrowful
anxious
and a little spiteful.

yuck.

sometimes i wish i could vomit these things out like a bad corndog. or, more accurately, like a pork taco from the highly-illegal-transporting-of-meat taquiera next door! yes, like that.

i feel venomous.

and ugly.

like this lower-self/ego me is crouching in the corner hissing and abcessing and preparing to pounce.

sorry. but i thought i'd go for honesty this time around. feels better, and worse. again, my apologies- no one should feel like this let alone have to hear about it.