RANTING DOESN'T EVEN HELP.
I AM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW I COULD CRY. I HONESTLY FEEL LIKE I HAVE MET THE MAN THAT COULD, ALONE, GET ME TO ABONDON THE CONVENTIONAL CHRISTIAN CHURCH COMPLETELY, ALTOGETHER, FOREVER.
I AM SO COMPLETELY FRUSTRATED AND DISGUSTED and i try to remember compassion and i try not to judge others, because i would ask the same of them...BUT I SWEAR...to, to, to SOMEBODY THAT THIS MAN EMBODIES EVERYTHING I HAVE COME TO DESPISE ABOUT FUNDAMENTAL AMERICAN CHRISTIANITY.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
WHAT THE HELL DO I DO WITH THAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
IT JUST MAKES ME SO ANGRY. i have been an angry person in the past, which with God's help and healing i have overcome in so many ways. but THIS guy, what he stands for, how he treats people, how he IS for goodness'sake make me sick. i mean, really, just sick.
and really, REALLY angry.
i have had to deal with him in the past and i think it is just better for my mental and spiritual health that i don't ever again. EVER.
UGH. UGH. UGH.
as i write this i am literally shaking. i cannot frickin believe it. i hate that just reading a stupid email from him can make me this angry. i do not like that it has that much power over me.
but AHHHHHHHHHHH i can't shake it.
jeez.
Jesus. .....right????!?!?!?!?!? this man is so faR AWAY FROM ANYTHING I WOULD EVER WANT TO BE LIKE. and not that i have to be like this guy or even look to him as an example, but the point is that A LOT of people, young people, look to him and he is so completely full of shit.
holy crap. i have to go.
6 comments:
oh, my lady, i understand.
who is he? is he famous or something or just a local dude u know.
local. i think it might be easier if it were some distant figure.
don't let it beat u friend. or disillusion the fragility of ur faith. if satan gets the good ones by using the bad ones...who's gonna be an example of Truth?
thank you for your wisdom. spoken from a deep and kind place.
I just wanted to comment on this piece because I am proud that you choose to stay and ingore the fools who see christianity as something it is clearly not. I hope that you are not forced to spend more time with him or relate to him. It is sad that anger is such a consuming flame but that is why you must Dive In (yes that was a steven curtis chapman refrence) to God fully. Which you have...okay thats it *waves then flees*
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